as my title suggests, i need a fucking job. indeed! daddy asked me this morning if i wanted to look for a job. or if i wanted to take a 2 wk holiday to taiwan or shanghai. i miss taiwan. i miss mike. bah. havn been really productive in my days after my poly life. been going out almost everyday and doing nothing but just wasting my time.

i had all the time in my life. so i signed up as a member of Amore, attending yoga/kickboxing/aerobics and hitting the gym to keep fit. apart from that, i have nothing more to talk about. anyhow, it was jacq’s, mark’s and fifi’s birthday this month. caught confessions of a shopaholic with baby yest and the show wasnt as fab as i expected it to be. but nonetheless, the heels isla wore in the show were worthy to die for. 

really sick of my long locks! so… i’ve decided to cut my hair s.h.o.r.t. shorter or short. but whatever it is, i need a new haircut.

visuals!

me after gym.

havn been blogging for weeks. aint really into blogging these days and instead of blogging, i typed everything into my iphone instead. =)

i just typed a whole chunk of my feelings in. but pressed the backspace button after everything. guess i can only say and keep everything to myself.

im about to face with an obstacle i’ve dreaded since 8 mths ago. i knw it when i received the news yesterday night.  i know its unavoidable but it seems to me that the outcome of this will be hard for me to take. but no matter how hard it’ll be, im gonna equip myself with the powerful 3Ps. i just hope this wont turn into a hurricane and blow me away. i just hope one day he’ll understand, its the choice i make in life. that my choice just happenes to be someone that is not ideal in their heads. but that doesnt mean its a wrong choice. i believe myself. and i hope they will trust me too. and i just hope they will understand that trying too hard will not bring me anywhere near happiness.

*you taught me how to love, but not how to stop. and the hardest thing that can happen to me is waking up without u.

my eyes aint getting any better. in fact, it got worse. but im lucky i’ve got caring friends around me showing so much care and concern, offering to buy lunch and even wanting to give me a fruit basket. hahahaha. like as if im really hospitalised huh. but im homelised. lol. boring boring and boring. gotta stay home for days so as not to expose myself to anyone in this world. but anyhow, im keeping myself entertained with fashion weeks and hot models. so time was well spent i should say. hehe.

visual of me in my ugly specs.

arthur just called me, telling me he’s leaving for taiwan and will be back only on the 8th of april or so. =( im gonna miss him so so much! but nonetheless, i still want my mua chee he promised to get for me. hahahaha.

anyway, lead a more healthy life with baby today. headed to east coast to roller blade and him jogging. but the calories burnt were soon filled back, or even twice as much with the dinner we had over at 85 and desserts at xingwang. haha.

been trying to get used to becoming a specs girl and it was kinda hard having to wear something on ur face which u dont see it as any part of a face accessory. but i’ve got no choice anyway. so gotta bear with it no matter how much i hate em. to side track a lil, im so hooked onto the quad camera that baby has helped me to download into my iphone. its fun! haha.

and its kaiming’s 20th birthday today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR BUDDY. =)

visuals !

baby and i.

and these are pics of me w/o make up.

and thats me with a bare face and my nerdy specs.

didnt really have a great time on cruise but despite that, the company i had with me was awesome… came back with a cut nose, cut finger and worse… rotten eye. how bad can that be. went straight to the eye centre and had it checked. my right eye is now infected with an ulcer. so im forced to wear specs for i-dunno-how-long. just till it gets better. and i hate myself, my face and how i look right now. its so ugly i dont even wanna look at myself in the mirror.

i spent my day with this man. had lunch over at chinatown, hoping the drizzle would stop so we could go suntanning. Still believing the sun will reveal itself, we headed to sentosa, km8 to be exact. This man introduced me to Sarongfly, the name of the best vodka i’ve ever tasted. and it was indeed the best vodka drink ive drank thus far. chilled with our sticks, cuddled tgt with the sea just metres away from us and spent a couple hours relaxing whilst drinking.

this man then took me to have teppanyaki for dinner. and headed to pasir ris afterwards for a drink over at summer breeze. the ambience was splendid. and with this man i had, the night was more than perfect. this man im talking about is non other than :

yes. he’s the man that has showered me with countless love and warmth over the past 8 months. 8mths doesnt seem long i know. but this man certainly has become part of my life and will definitely still be in the years to come.

my love life is like playing games of jackpot. losing once and keep trying again, till i win. and when i win, i’ll try even harder, hoping i’ll win even more. this cycle never ends. but now, i realised being contented with what i have is the most important thing.

jimkev, u complete me. at least for now, u did.

and guess what, believe it or not, im crazy over u.

im back to the sunday-is-kev-day routine. yeay! baby came over my place to pick me and we went kampong hunting. haha, didnt manage to find the kampongs in the end but we found a place that’s practically just me and him, green patches of grass and beautiful blue skies hovering above. dont know exactly where we were. but just find the place kinda romantic though. headed to watch marley and me. great show i must say. now i have to think twice about having kids and owning a dog. HAHA.

headed back to baby’s to have some pasta loving. chilling out with mini uno at the comfort of baby’s crib is really perfect. and now im so tuned into watching fashion week clips!

i will only get married if i get to wear these gowns for my big day.

and i love her killer look. She’s really gorgeous!

anyway, visuals!

my all time favourite.

im kinda enjoying life right now. free from any commitments. free from any school stress. able to have all the time at night to slab on body lotion. have the energy to exfoliate my whole body, do my face mask religiously and surf the net with no time restrictions. great. gonna start keeping myself busy with magazines and storybooks. oh. have i mentioned that i wanna take up hot yoga, kickboxing, learn driving and gonna party when the mood kicks in?

 a brand new future awaits me. Hello Real World. 

and i wanna get a jumpsuit. saw it on lots of fashion runway models. totally hot! the fashion show that is definitely not to miss every fashion week would be MARC JACOBS. im currently loving all his shows, esp his spring 09 collection.hot models and bold fashion pieces to die for.  and i love how Alexander Wang transform simplicity into a fashion statement. damn. im drooling!!!

okay im so loving my tan. i know i’ve been saying this for the countless time but still, im loving my tan. thanks to baby.

had my last paper yest and im really free now. went shopping with fi, caught a movie and met bernerd for dindin over at sushi tei. and it was a random dbl o night with fi and ben yesterday. and guess who i ran into? my rmt classmates jianhai fusheng kenny guifang and group and also rachel! damn. tp gathering over at dbl o yest huh. drank quite abit and got a lil tipsy but lucky there was ben who was the gentleman of the night.

made baby a lil pissed though, but he still came to pick me up. sweet! well i guess i am a lucky bitch. having such a darling to worry for me wherever i go, picking me up after work and meeting me whenever i miss him. haha.

visuals!

damn i look so short standing beside the two babes.