i need a fucking job

as my title suggests, i need a fucking job. indeed! daddy asked me this morning if i wanted to look for a job. or if i wanted to take a 2 wk holiday to taiwan or shanghai. i miss taiwan. i miss mike. bah. havn been really productive in my days after my poly life. been going out almost everyday and doing nothing but just wasting my time.

i had all the time in my life. so i signed up as a member of Amore, attending yoga/kickboxing/aerobics and hitting the gym to keep fit. apart from that, i have nothing more to talk about. anyhow, it was jacq’s, mark’s and fifi’s birthday this month. caught confessions of a shopaholic with baby yest and the show wasnt as fab as i expected it to be. but nonetheless, the heels isla wore in the show were worthy to die for. 

really sick of my long locks! so… i’ve decided to cut my hair s.h.o.r.t. shorter or short. but whatever it is, i need a new haircut.

visuals!

me after gym.

alittle too over.

havn been blogging for weeks. aint really into blogging these days and instead of blogging, i typed everything into my iphone instead. =)

i just typed a whole chunk of my feelings in. but pressed the backspace button after everything. guess i can only say and keep everything to myself.

obstacle

im about to face with an obstacle i’ve dreaded since 8 mths ago. i knw it when i received the news yesterday night.  i know its unavoidable but it seems to me that the outcome of this will be hard for me to take. but no matter how hard it’ll be, im gonna equip myself with the powerful 3Ps. i just hope this wont turn into a hurricane and blow me away. i just hope one day he’ll understand, its the choice i make in life. that my choice just happenes to be someone that is not ideal in their heads. but that doesnt mean its a wrong choice. i believe myself. and i hope they will trust me too. and i just hope they will understand that trying too hard will not bring me anywhere near happiness.

*you taught me how to love, but not how to stop. and the hardest thing that can happen to me is waking up without u.

blessing in disguise?

my eyes aint getting any better. in fact, it got worse. but im lucky i’ve got caring friends around me showing so much care and concern, offering to buy lunch and even wanting to give me a fruit basket. hahahaha. like as if im really hospitalised huh. but im homelised. lol. boring boring and boring. gotta stay home for days so as not to expose myself to anyone in this world. but anyhow, im keeping myself entertained with fashion weeks and hot models. so time was well spent i should say. hehe.

visual of me in my ugly specs.

wings on me

arthur just called me, telling me he’s leaving for taiwan and will be back only on the 8th of april or so. =( im gonna miss him so so much! but nonetheless, i still want my mua chee he promised to get for me. hahahaha.

anyway, lead a more healthy life with baby today. headed to east coast to roller blade and him jogging. but the calories burnt were soon filled back, or even twice as much with the dinner we had over at 85 and desserts at xingwang. haha.

been trying to get used to becoming a specs girl and it was kinda hard having to wear something on ur face which u dont see it as any part of a face accessory. but i’ve got no choice anyway. so gotta bear with it no matter how much i hate em. to side track a lil, im so hooked onto the quad camera that baby has helped me to download into my iphone. its fun! haha.

and its kaiming’s 20th birthday today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR BUDDY. =)

visuals !

baby and i.

 

and these are pics of me w/o make up.

and thats me with a bare face and my nerdy specs.